Bea the college student

21st

2006-03-13T23:16:00.000+01:00

Woo hoo! I'm 21 years old! :) cool. now i can drink legally everywhere...
that just sounded like an alcoholic person, huh?
nooo, this doesn't matter... the drinking thing, i mean
but this birthday was so amazing! my new friends from my college organized a surprise party for me... and it was a real surprize! i was sooooo totally happy! really, it was one of the coolest presents i've ever got.
and i also got two birthday cakes, one from them and one from my family. and nice presents: loads of colourful things (bracelets and a t-shirt) and chocolate! :) and my parents payed the half of a massage-course i want to participate in. :) it begins in april, i am so excited about it!
oh yess and we went to Vienna again with my mother for a weekend. it was cool as well.
and my lovely boyfriend bought me a cool IKEA-blanket, just the one i was dreaming of...
so, all in all it was such a great birthday.....

a pic here of my friends and me at the party

in love

2006-03-06T23:58:00.000+01:00

hehe. drunk again. :)

what a lovely picture, though. cute, huh?

oh yess, i think i'm in love. :)

strange but it's true... :D :D

pic

2006-02-11T14:09:00.000+01:00

that's us :) well... i am already a bit drunk in this picture :D

boyfriend

2006-02-05T15:36:00.000+01:00

okey. so now we are together... :) he is my boyfriend. i am his girlfriend. and it's not even strange anymore... cause we've been together for 3 days (oh what a huge period, huh?) so i had time to get used to the thought of having a boyfriend.
everything's great with him, he's so sweet and he's got such interesting thoughts... and he likes me a lot. :) i already know his friends and they're cool, too.
the only strange feeling i have is that... for me it is kinda hard to accept that someone wants to own me in a way... but i won't complicate things anymore... i'll just let it be:)

today is the last day of my vacations which is quite sad, i got used to getting up late and not rushing anywhere, just taking my time so much... well... school again!

relationship

2006-02-01T13:24:00.000+01:00

when does someone become your girlfriend/boyfriend? when is "that" moment? and what decides it? i don't know. it's rather a feeling than a decision. i think it's when you feel that person is special for you and belongs to you... and becomes part of your life. it's difficult to explain.

i already met this guy 4 times... and i've only known him for a week... and i feel real good with him and he says the same about me... yesterday we had a conversation about realtionships and he said he thought we were already together like boyfriend and girlfriend. ... but i still don't feel that. i don't want to hurt him... but i need more time to ... not to decide but to come clear with my feelings :)

i just think that there are so many interesting people... and if i am not 100% interested in someone, why should i make any compromise... a lot of my friends think i overcomplicate things with guys... well, maybe i do... my freedom is just really important for me... :) that's it.

circus

2006-01-29T14:37:00.000+01:00

:) oh well.
i went out on wenesday night and i met a guy. just as planned. :) and he called me on thursady and invited me to the circus on friday.
to the circus!!!! this is so cool! a first date in a circus... i was so happy about it all thursday :D
so we met on friday at 2 pm. and didn't go to the circus cause there were no more tickets... but we had a great time anyway... i was with him until 1:30 am. sooo it was really great.
he is so cool! he's smart and funny and original and nice and ambicious and .... :) i like him a lot now. we've got the same kind of homour and that's amazing... :) i want to see him again and again and.... :)

London

2006-01-25T19:35:00.001+01:00

London was great! :) i am so amazed by this city! really... i think i may live there later for some months or a year. ... crazy city... really. breathtaking.
i loved walking on the streets and sitting on the buses and just randomly travelling through the city. and listening to people's everyday conversations... and just simply exploring it all!
well, the brazilian guy has got a girlfriend... that's what he forgot to tell me. i mean it was no problem with me... but he could have told me... :) she was cool, too, anyway.

the hungarian guy i like is not calling me... for like a week now so i don't know what's up. maybe he doesn't like me anymore... the thing is that he is just over a 5 year relationship, so... no wonder he is not that interested in me. however, that's a pity... but i think i will have to find someone now to forget about him :) :) gonna go out tonight! :D

i didn't do anything today and it felt great:D after all these busy days in London i needed a rest... i feel a bit guilty, though. :) tomorrow i will go to the gym! :D maybe... :D

mysterious

2006-01-15T22:46:00.000+01:00

there is a guy. i like him. i think he likes me. i HOPE he likes me :)
but the thing is. that. there was a guy 2-3 months ago, who liked me. and in the beginning i liked him, too. but after a while i got to know him better, and didn't fancy him anymore... he was too... unindependent and too... spoiled. i don't know, i just don't think that's the ideal guy for me. but we kissed once and he thought it would mean SOMETHING... but i din't think so at all. so. we are not really in touch anymore.
but this new guy has so much in common with that guy. not the negative things, though. or i still don't know him that much and didn't realize that :)
and it just turned out today that these two guys were born on the same day. yea, really. same year, same month, same day. scary. and funny. :) i don't know what to do with this information.
there is something i can not bear with. there is this theory my mother belives in: in every life you live (your soul, i mean) you have goals which are already determined and you can make decisions on your own, but no mater what, you will reach those goals. it may take a bit longer if you make the wrong decision first, but it will happen anyway.
well i still don't know if i believe in this. for sure i think it's interesting and admirable. would it be the same in this case or is it only a coincidence? :)

OVER

2006-01-11T01:05:00.000+01:00

yeeeaaaah. my exams are over. i did quite well. yea. gonna get some scolarship money. not much, though... like 30-40 euros/month, but... whatever. it's enough to go out sometimes. Hungary's cheap. lovely:D
so i celabrated today. after my last exam i went to a gym. o yes, really. i am gonna practise some sport... no sport actually, but work out:D i will be so cool :D:D:D:D
after that i had a conversation with a homeless man at a bus stop and he was so cool he even offered me some of his wine (which didn't actually look decent, so i had to refuse it)
and i also went to the cinema to watch the movie: It's all gone Pete Tong. I've wanted to see it for like a year now :D so i am satisfied right now.
and gonna party hard in these weeks i have free. party, work out and go to the cinema every other day. nice plan, huh? :D

exams

2006-01-05T22:15:00.000+01:00

:)only have one exam left:) had my most diffucult one yesterday and i am so happy to be over it that i went to the cinema today and yesterday, too :):)
my last exam is next week, then i will have like 3 weeks freeeee :D:D:D:D coool.

resolutions

2006-01-01T14:48:00.000+01:00

the same as always:

1. gonna practise some sport regularly.
2. gonna spend less time in front of my computer.

that's all. :)

uuuuuy

2005-12-29T20:15:00.000+01:00

i am soooooooo excited:D i am going to London in january for a couple of days. :) after my exams:) actually i will have a lot of free time after my exams. :):):) (But studying first... :-S )
so this guy i met in Amsterdam is living in London and invited me to stay at his place :) he's so cool i am really happy, i've never been to London, to England, actually. and this guy is so damn cute ;) he is the half brazilian-half italian guy i've written about in my old diary... hehe. he's a filmmaker and a photographer, kinda busy guy, but he said he will make some of his time free for me:) cooool! i am really really excited:)

+ i am going to a big party in Budapest for New Years Eve... underground kind. with some new friends, it should be FUN! hopefully:)

one more

2005-12-26T19:50:00.000+01:00

oookey, these are my new winter shoes.
:) they are waterproof. ! woo hoo!
i simply couldn't find any boots or anything i liked. but i love these a lot.
i bought them to myself for christmas:)
lovely:)

myway:)

2005-12-24T17:43:00.000+01:00

oh well just wanted to put some pics here... this is how my hand-made christmas presents look like:) (Timi is the name of my cousine, she's a girl, of course guys get glasses with guy-figure on it:)

sure they are not the most beautiful presnets, but made with love and that's what counts:)

Merry Christmas everyone! !!!!!

feeling

2005-12-20T12:12:00.000+01:00

Christmas feeling? no, not at all... maybe because i am too busy? dunno...
but what i can see around me is that Hungarian people are totally stressed, freaked out and annoyed about this whole Christmas thing. it has become a stressful period for all... they are worried about what to buy and all this money thing. how have we come to this?? Christmas is meant to be the day of love... i begin to have negative feelings about Christmas. it's all commercial and is rather a competition... how? why? don't see the point.
i've made a resolution: from now on every year i will make presents for my family and friends i order to remind them of the essence of Christmas. no financial question. something sweet made by me... with love. that's what people need, not the whole let's-spend-even-more-moey-than-last-year stuff. i think so at least:)

there is also a project in Hungary to give Christmas presents to the orphans. you can put something in a shoe box and send it to an address and it will be delivered to an orphan on Christmas Eve. :) me and my mother were quite excited about this thing, it sounds really sweet... but then we heard the conditions... you HAVE TO buy something new and not give something you already had... in order to prevent that people give really old and dirty stuff... it's so stupid! why would you give ugly or dirty things to an orphan? a lot of people do have nice things which may be a bit used but not dirty or ugly ... who would buy new things?? when you can give cool stuff u don't use anymore or have never used or anything... with love. why is it important to give something new?? don't get it. maybe i'm wrong... but this way less orphans will get a Christmas present. ........

lately

2005-12-18T15:58:00.000+01:00

have not written much here lately. sorry about it i am kinda busy (and lazy, for sure;) especially in the past few weeks i had so many exams... gosh the last time i've really studied hard was like 1,5 years ago. it's not really nice to get back to it:) but i did quite well on my exams... hopefully i will get some scholarship-money for it, it would be nice. i could spare money for my summer vacations.
unfortunately i have still 4 exams left (i mean if i pass them all) still one before christmas... ohh. so won't have much time to prepare for christmas. acually, i have an idea for all my christmas presents... i will put a photo up here as soon as it's done.

i have been home already for 4 months. :) cool, huh? i still love living in Budapest. and i've already found some really cool places to go out and have fun and some really cool people as well. one of them is my roommate Zsófi.
i've also met some guys but noone especially special:) there have been 3 guys so far who'd like to have a relationship with me but i ... i don't know, i didn't feel like it and as they did't want to be friends with me... well it's a pity, two of them were cool. just not cool enough to become my boyfriend...
i am really happy without a boyfriend and i think i am strong and don't need a guy just to have someone to depend on or someone to share my problems with...
i want someone who i can look up to and have passion for and have fun with and share the special moments with. in one word someone especially special :):):)
i think now that in Hungary there are much more beautiful girls than cool guys, so it's quite a difficult situation ;) :D dutch guys are much more my types than hungarian guys. it's a shame cuz i am staying 3 more years in Hungary because of my college:)

Vienna

2005-12-11T11:33:00.000+01:00

So. I went to Vienna this weekend and it was really cool:) some pics here :)

just found

2005-11-27T13:51:00.000+01:00

This is me and my brother... end of this summer:)

stroopwafel

2005-11-17T17:49:00.000+01:00

yeah! i just found out they are selling stroopwafels in Hungary lately:) they are even a bit cheaper than in Holland :) :) so i bought some to let my hungarian friends taste it! and they liked it! haha, of course they did;) stroopwafels are great!

so, the exams have already begun, so i don't go out as much as i did one or two months ago... have to study! funny:) but yesterday i partied hard again! it was so great! a drum 'n' bass party. i love these kind of parties:) ohh. but today i feel shitty cause i didn't sleep enough and my stomach hurts a lot and i had an exam, too. but i think it went well... :)

:)

2005-11-05T23:09:00.000+01:00

finally. we've moved.
the new flat is cool so far only the owner is a bit weird sometimes... but he is really helpful. he is living in the same house, (it's a 3 storey house) so he told us we could not organize a house-warming party. which is not cool... hopefully he will be cooler in the future :p
and we have internet now:) and the flat is bigger and cheaper and closer to the school (only 3 minutes walking) :D and we have now 3 separate rooms:) and a huge dog. and a huge garden. and fruit trees:)
quite nice, huh?

life is beautiful

2005-10-29T21:34:00.000+02:00

i had such a hiper-positive day today. :) i don't know why, sometimes i simply feel great without any reason and i smile all the time and look at the sky and ... it's just an excellent feeling :) funny, this morning i had such a hungover i almost couln't get out of my bed :) but later it was so cool.
unbelievable, how warm the weather is now. 15-20 degrees almost every day. and sunshine!!!! :) so cool!
plus i bought a scarf today. a colorful one... i am so happy, i've wanted one like this for years and couldn't find any. :)

short hair:D

2005-10-26T12:56:00.000+02:00

i've been to the hairdresser again on monday. so here my new look

(my mom says i look more and more like a boy :) )

just discovered

2005-10-25T11:03:00.000+02:00

how much i like the autumn colours. we are having such a nice, sunny autumn here in Hungary and the yellow leaves look so great :) i have a week of vacations now, so i am spending some days at home... :)
we are moving the 1st of november to the new flat in Budapest (still looking for the 3rd roommate) and we had a flat-farwell-party last week. it was cool. Pics here

recently i am so happy about the fact that i have enough money cause i give private lessons (dutch and spanish) and don't have to worry about how much i spend, i just always have money... such a great feeling. and i don't even work hard plus like what i'm doing. so cool!
so, guys: study languages and you won't have money problems! haha, sure:)

studying

2005-10-09T15:01:00.000+02:00

i am studying for my first-college exam! woo hoo, how exciting is this:) the first college-exam in my life... and... maths!! :D
i dunno, sometimes when i am sitting on a boring lesson i have the feeling: why am i actually here? why do i need this? the funny thing is,
when i went to high school it was obvious and completely normal that we are all going to study further and go to university or college... but since then i've seen a lot of things and people... people who did'nt go to college/university and had a totally cool and happy life... i don't know...
of course i am enjoying the student life a lot, but it's not that obvious anymore... and i am gonna finish this school, but sometimes i am just dubious about this whole thing...

it's not that nice

2005-10-02T10:34:00.000+02:00

that i can only write on weekends... i don't remember everything of my week, or maybe i forget something important... but okey... no other option.
BUT: we arranged this week a new flat where we are moving to in november and we are going to have internet there:) unbelievable, huh?:D and it's even cheaper than the flat we are living in now. but next week we will have to deal with the current flat's owner... they were not that happy when i called to say we were moving...
i've already started studying, it's okey so far, not much homework and not too difficult...
i am happy right now that i didn't go to the dutch college, the HES in Amsterdam, cause some of the guys who went there told me it's harder than they thought it would be. so just imagine how hard it would be for me... to study everything in dutch and english... plus two other languages:) yeah well, that's what i wanted... it really sounds good, but if i think about it... not sure if i would have been able to actually do it.
furthermore, it's nice to be at home ( for a whlie:D ) and i still like Budapest a lot. not exactly the part we live at, but... our school is there. it "only" takes half an hour to get to the city centre...:D by bus and underground/subway/metro. but it is okey so far. at least i don't have to wake up early to go to school:)

so

2005-09-24T22:24:00.000+02:00

i had a really cool "job" this week, there was a dutch group i had to lead in Budapest, so for 2 days i was a tour guide and didn't go to school:) and spoke dutch and got money for it:) hehe! and the people were nice, but they had a lot of trouble with each other because of the money... hm... dutch people:)
i am taking hip-hop dance lessons, by the way and it's cool, and i just started a tennis course and i am teaching spanish, and having italian classes, so don't have much free time, but i love this kind of lifestyle, not like the boring -working 2 or 3 days a week and not having enough money to be able to do anything ecxiting in my free time- kind... :) and still going out 2-3 times a week.
don't wanna have exams... in hungary when there is a period of exams at a university or college, nobody is able to do anything else but study... so i am enjoying the time til then:):):):)

2005-09-17T22:03:00.000+02:00

i just found this photo... it's from last week... it's me with short hair and a new friend from my college:)

this week

2005-09-17T21:54:00.000+02:00

i partied hard! i mean HARD!! :) we went out on tuesday, wenesday and thursday so on friday i was soooooooooo tired i went to bed at 9 pm. :)
Going out in Budapest is really nice. exciting ;) so much to explore:)
on thursday i got reaaaally drunk... the 3rd time of my life being this drunk... don't remember everything what happened.
i got to know some guys, cause i :) was drunk as i said:) and i went to everyone with a stupid hungarian slogan from Pepsi... from like 3 years ago... (Hi i am Kate, do you have a Pepsi?) i know this doesn't sound funny, but in hungarian it's a bit funnier... :) so i actually got two glasses of pepsi that night, although i don't like it. and got the number of 4 guys as well... and went home with one of them... who knows why... he is even shorter than me... and next day i saw that i don't like him :) but he was funny... and sure he called me yesterday and today again... if i would like to go to his place again....
gosh... guys are sooo stupid when it comes about getting a girl... i mean sexually. he is still trying hard... pffffff. you won't get me, dude! :)
cause i'm not that kind of girl (this is a song, right?!)

finally

2005-09-03T17:10:00.000+02:00

i found a flat, and i am gonna move to my new flat tomorrow... not gonna have internet:( so... probably won't write here that often... (til now... didn't write here often anyway)
i am gonna share a flat with two other girls from my college. they are nice, hopefully everything's gonna be okey.
the pre-college-camp was super cool, got to know lots of nice people, i hope i will have lots of friends at college:)
i also spent a week at my grandma's.
AND!! i'm starting to like my hair:) haha... just starting. not liking it yet.
school starts in 2 days, so i still need 2 party nights:)

had a nice job offer... something like customer service worker... web center office or sth like that, which i would have to do in dutch:) but it would require 4 hours work every day... so unfortunately i won't be able to do it... cause i'm a student:):):)
but i am gonna teach spanish and dutch... and i can earn quite good with that. :) hope so:)

summer...

2005-08-21T13:14:00.000+02:00

this weather... :( i am not in Holland anymore, what's happening here?!?!?
i managed to spend some time with my family (and friends) this past week, it was nice.
tomorrow i am going to a camp with my future college-mates. :) hopefully it will be fun. there are gonna be so many of us. so many with similar interests. I've never experienced something like this, so... looking forward to it.
by the way, still haven't found a flat, but right now it seems that i have even more options... will have to choose after this camp.

still tired

2005-08-16T21:42:00.000+02:00

didn't do anything today. slept for 12 hours though. and i still feel tired... :)
+I got sick because the last night of the festival i slept in a tent and it was cold and in the morning it started to rain...

and i got to know that i can not move in into any of the two flats in Budapest i have seen so far... so i will have to keep searching... :) but it's okey. i like looking at different flats to have the choice where to live... school starts in 3 weeks, so i don't have that much time.
hopefully i will get well soon... still have loads of things to do in this 3 weeks and need to be full of energy!

Sziget 2005

2005-08-15T21:44:00.000+02:00

well, i just came back from Sziget Festival 2005, which is the biggest summer outdoor festival in Hungary and in Central-Europe as well.
I've only been there for 5 days instead of 7 but i think now it was enough... i couldn't get a week-ticket anymore, it was all sold out. crazy. there were sooooo many foreigners! mostly germans, but lots of english, dutch, spanish, portugese, italian people as well. i just love the athmosphere of this festival... this was the 4th year i went there, and i am still enjoying it a lot!
I am completely tired... 5 days of partying, not sleeping, drinking red bull and lots of water... uuuh... really tiring :)
I met some nice people there... and some not that nice people... and some acquitances as well... it was FUN!
but i just cut my hair really short before i went to the festival so right now i feel i look weird (i have never had this short hair before) and my self-confidence needs some boosting... many people told me i look like a 15 year old now... my mother told me i look like a boy :( hm...
and i didn't meet that many boys as i used to last year and before... maybe i am wrong but i feel it's because of my hair...
there was this fireman guy... i think the fact that he is a fireman is really funny... we met at the festival and had a good time but after all it all went wrong... i can not really explain why... he was nice but he was too often too drunk and he wanted to make out drunk but i was only attracted to him when he was sober... (i think that's normal) so he got mad... and the next time he was sober he didn't even want to touch me... so i didn't get it... and today he told me he doesn't want anything anymore from me. .... i think this was a big misunderstood but okey... can't help it anymore... he was too old(26) anyway. and we had completely different interests...
i also met other guys but after a short or longer talk ... that was it.
but i partied hard! sometimes alone, sometimes with some nice girls i met there... so many different kinds of music... it was soooo cool to dance to different styles... only had to walk a minute when i got bored of one and needed a change. and some amazing concerts... I've seen (only writing the famous ones) Sean Paul, Natalie Imbruglia, KoRn, Franz Ferdinand, Basement Jaxx, Underworld, Juliette and the Licks... etc :)
all in all it was a great festival again! going next year again for sure!