Bea the college student

Woo hoo! I'm 21 years old! :) cool. now i can drink legally everywhere...
that just sounded like an alcoholic person, huh?
nooo, this doesn't matter... the drinking thing, i mean
but this birthday was so amazing! my new friends from my college organized a surprise party for me... and it was a real surprize! i was sooooo totally happy! really, it was one of the coolest presents i've ever got.
and i also got two birthday cakes, one from them and one from my family. and nice presents: loads of colourful things (bracelets and a t-shirt) and chocolate! :) and my parents payed the half of a massage-course i want to participate in. :) it begins in april, i am so excited about it!
oh yess and we went to Vienna again with my mother for a weekend. it was cool as well.
and my lovely boyfriend bought me a cool IKEA-blanket, just the one i was dreaming of...
so, all in all it was such a great birthday.....

a pic here of my friends and me at the party

hehe. drunk again. :)

what a lovely picture, though. cute, huh?

oh yess, i think i'm in love. :)

strange but it's true... :D :D

that's us :) well... i am already a bit drunk in this picture :D

okey. so now we are together... :) he is my boyfriend. i am his girlfriend. and it's not even strange anymore... cause we've been together for 3 days (oh what a huge period, huh?) so i had time to get used to the thought of having a boyfriend.
everything's great with him, he's so sweet and he's got such interesting thoughts... and he likes me a lot. :) i already know his friends and they're cool, too.
the only strange feeling i have is that... for me it is kinda hard to accept that someone wants to own me in a way... but i won't complicate things anymore... i'll just let it be:)

today is the last day of my vacations which is quite sad, i got used to getting up late and not rushing anywhere, just taking my time so much... well... school again!

when does someone become your girlfriend/boyfriend? when is "that" moment? and what decides it? i don't know. it's rather a feeling than a decision. i think it's when you feel that person is special for you and belongs to you... and becomes part of your life. it's difficult to explain.

i already met this guy 4 times... and i've only known him for a week... and i feel real good with him and he says the same about me... yesterday we had a conversation about realtionships and he said he thought we were already together like boyfriend and girlfriend. ... but i still don't feel that. i don't want to hurt him... but i need more time to ... not to decide but to come clear with my feelings :)

i just think that there are so many interesting people... and if i am not 100% interested in someone, why should i make any compromise... a lot of my friends think i overcomplicate things with guys... well, maybe i do... my freedom is just really important for me... :) that's it.

:) oh well.
i went out on wenesday night and i met a guy. just as planned. :) and he called me on thursady and invited me to the circus on friday.
to the circus!!!! this is so cool! a first date in a circus... i was so happy about it all thursday :D
so we met on friday at 2 pm. and didn't go to the circus cause there were no more tickets... but we had a great time anyway... i was with him until 1:30 am. sooo it was really great.
he is so cool! he's smart and funny and original and nice and ambicious and .... :) i like him a lot now. we've got the same kind of homour and that's amazing... :) i want to see him again and again and.... :)

London was great! :) i am so amazed by this city! really... i think i may live there later for some months or a year. ... crazy city... really. breathtaking.
i loved walking on the streets and sitting on the buses and just randomly travelling through the city. and listening to people's everyday conversations... and just simply exploring it all!
well, the brazilian guy has got a girlfriend... that's what he forgot to tell me. i mean it was no problem with me... but he could have told me... :) she was cool, too, anyway.

the hungarian guy i like is not calling me... for like a week now so i don't know what's up. maybe he doesn't like me anymore... the thing is that he is just over a 5 year relationship, so... no wonder he is not that interested in me. however, that's a pity... but i think i will have to find someone now to forget about him :) :) gonna go out tonight! :D

i didn't do anything today and it felt great:D after all these busy days in London i needed a rest... i feel a bit guilty, though. :) tomorrow i will go to the gym! :D maybe... :D

there is a guy. i like him. i think he likes me. i HOPE he likes me :)
but the thing is. that. there was a guy 2-3 months ago, who liked me. and in the beginning i liked him, too. but after a while i got to know him better, and didn't fancy him anymore... he was too... unindependent and too... spoiled. i don't know, i just don't think that's the ideal guy for me. but we kissed once and he thought it would mean SOMETHING... but i din't think so at all. so. we are not really in touch anymore.
but this new guy has so much in common with that guy. not the negative things, though. or i still don't know him that much and didn't realize that :)
and it just turned out today that these two guys were born on the same day. yea, really. same year, same month, same day. scary. and funny. :) i don't know what to do with this information.
there is something i can not bear with. there is this theory my mother belives in: in every life you live (your soul, i mean) you have goals which are already determined and you can make decisions on your own, but no mater what, you will reach those goals. it may take a bit longer if you make the wrong decision first, but it will happen anyway.
well i still don't know if i believe in this. for sure i think it's interesting and admirable. would it be the same in this case or is it only a coincidence? :)

yeeeaaaah. my exams are over. i did quite well. yea. gonna get some scolarship money. not much, though... like 30-40 euros/month, but... whatever. it's enough to go out sometimes. Hungary's cheap. lovely:D
so i celabrated today. after my last exam i went to a gym. o yes, really. i am gonna practise some sport... no sport actually, but work out:D i will be so cool :D:D:D:D
after that i had a conversation with a homeless man at a bus stop and he was so cool he even offered me some of his wine (which didn't actually look decent, so i had to refuse it)
and i also went to the cinema to watch the movie: It's all gone Pete Tong. I've wanted to see it for like a year now :D so i am satisfied right now.
and gonna party hard in these weeks i have free. party, work out and go to the cinema every other day. nice plan, huh? :D

:)only have one exam left:) had my most diffucult one yesterday and i am so happy to be over it that i went to the cinema today and yesterday, too :):)
my last exam is next week, then i will have like 3 weeks freeeee :D:D:D:D coool.